revised dai sesshin schedule..

•3 am wake up
•3:10 formal tea adderall
•3:30 chanting
•4:30 – 6:30 zazen/ sanzen [ok to keep NPR on?]
•6:45 breakfast
•7:20 break
•7:30 zazen [ok to stretch during this?]
•8:30 teisho masturbation
•9:45-11:45 zazen reading
•10:00-11:45 sanzen emailing
•12:00 lunch
•12:30 work period
•12:40 break
•12:50-2:30 zazen and showers panic over aging and loneliness
•2:45 chanting moaning, coping
•3:45 -5:30 zazen, sanzen
•5:45 dinner
•6:20 break
•6:30 gyodo(walking/chanting) happy hour
•7:00 - 9:00 zazen, sanzen listen to music.. work on my side project.. publication deadline is coming up

ps. roshi.. dont even get me started on those times..

if you really love someone.. you never stop.. no matter what.. and as much as you deny the love you feel for them.. if you ever loved someone.. you always will..